To Cheat or Not to Cheat?
I have always been a loyal, content boyfriend to my current
Girlfriend. Though recently she decided to cheat on me
with a friend of hers that I never liked, he is a bad guy and
was never a good influence on her. Afterwards she admitted
it to me and I was extremely hurt, she swore that she was sorry
and only loved me and that it would never happen again. I
really care for her and I want to believe her and try to work
through it, but it has really hurt our relationship a lot.
I lost a lot of trust in her and I have started being unsure
about my feelings for her and to make it worse she refuses
to stop hanging out with the guy she cheated on me with because
she says I work too much (which is probably true) and she
has to have fun somehow. I realize I work a lot, but I really
need the $ and she enjoys me taking her out so she should be
understanding. I just find it hard to believe that her cheating
was my fault. I please her in bed, i love to give oral and she
usually goes away with more then 5 orgasms.
This incident just really like turned me off of the relationship
and I have had a constant desire to cheat on her lately. Not
as much because I want to her hurt but I kinda feel like I am
missing out on experiencing things now. This guy would
make her 16th lover and I have only had 2, I really want to
experiment and explore my sexuality and her cheating just
made it worse cause I kinda feel like well if she did it so
can I. I am very confused, I really don't want to leave her
but I want to explore my sexuality more.
What do you think I should do?
Thanks, DHH
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