Picking up the pieces
This is going to be just as depressing and pathetic as the
rest of these, I'm afraid, so just bear with me.
I met my ex 2 years ago after a concert (we both sing). I got
the nerve to ask her out to dinner and it went from there.
It developed really fast, but from my point of view everything
was good.
The troubles began over the summer, when, out of classes,
I could take on far more hours at work. The problem with that
was that my job never seemed to realize that school came
first, and when I finally walked out in frustration a month
into classes, I was still working full-time. During this
time, in order to get sleep, work, school, and my girlfriend
all crammed into my schedule, I poured all my free time into
my ex. She started feeling smothered because of this constant
attention whenever I had free time. She broke off our 3-month
engagement, and has been talking to me less and less since.
She said she really didn't want to let me go, but I needed
physical affection (not just sex, but touching/holding
her) far more than she was comfortable with. She tried to
let me down easy, first saying we should take time apart,
then saying we could get back together later... you know
the deal. She slowly pulled my heart out by a thread.
My life is a shambles right now. I have a new job on a daytime
schedule, so my evenings are free. But without her, I'm
just desperately lonely. I don't know about being
on the rebound - sex isn't a huge drive for me after I
lost her - but I just need to feel like I belong, and after
dropping virtually everything for her, I don't know
how to start over again.
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